I’m a Healer not a Fighter
Don’t get it twisted, I’m more chingona (tougher) than you’ll ever know and these last couple of years since diagnosis, have been hell! But cancer didn’t actually torture my body. Cancer didn’t make me lose my hair. Cancer didn’t poison me and make me sick to my stomach for months on end. Cancer didn’t cut off my breasts. Cancer didn’t burn the shit out of my skin. Cancer didn’t give me nine new scars on my abdomen. Cancer didn’t stun my uterus, stop my period, and make me gain 30lbs. Cancer didn’t turn the skin on my hands and feet black while peeling back and hurting so much I could barely walk. Cancer didn’t make my joints ache so horribly, I could barely get out of bed. In fact, I never even felt sick from cancer until I started receiving the life-saving medical treatments for it.
I absolutely believe there are significant benefits to modern medical treatments. But I don’t see it as healing medicine that addresses the root causes of our illnesses. Nor am I one of those people who believe we can just drink a little lemon water or avoid sugar and the cancer will disappear. But what both of these philosophical extremes miss is that cancer is foundationally, our own cells, over-growing. The original tumor that was taken out of my body was a part of my breast and therefore a part of me. My body. Words have tremendous power, so from the beginning I never wanted to say I was fighting cancer. Not fighting myself. I was and I continue working to heal myself for my ancestors and all of those that will come after me.
Energy cannot die, right?
That is a fact. As humans, we contain energy within every cell. It is what animates us. So some of my cells that became cancer were stuck in a terrible cycle of proliferation. And let’s say the doctors were successful in cutting, poisoning, and burning it out. Let’s say that their treatments cleared my body of absolutely every last malignant cell. (Which is a certainty that they cannot provide to cancer patients). Where does the cancerous energy go? I don’t believe that we can depend on the tools of the modern medicine to be fully healed. I believe that there has to be an energetic change at a fundamental level or our bodies will find their way back to the same loop that created the cancer to begin with.
I Will Always Believe In Energy Healing
Yes, the medical industrial complex currently maintains the treatments that work the best for the current state of our world. But currently this planet is in a lot of danger and filled with violence. Environmental science is grossly underfunded and misinterpreted as is women’s medicine. This is due in large part to the way we have separated ourselves from Mother Earth which is evident in everything especially our “health care” systems and the “medicine” within them. We are a part of the earth. We cannot be fixed like machines. Our bodies cannot be poisoned, burned, cut, and rearranged into health. The approach of the medical industrial complex was created at the same time and by the same culture that also created genocide, colonization, and slavery.
The way that indigenous medicine looks at illness is fundamentally different from the current standard of care for cancer. Indigenous medicines aren’t just gentler and more respectful, they are further rooted in our very elemental existence. Indigenous medicines have been violently taken from and destroyed by so many. But there are those of us who are remembering and reclaiming our medicines all over the world. It is indigenous medicines and practices that have gotten me through the violent and dehumanizing cancer treatments that I’ve undergone. I believe it is the integration and leadership of indigenous medicine in the medical field that can get us to an actual cure for cancer.
